Tuesday, May 7, 2013

WITHIN SOMETHING-Spirits Trying To Be Free


Dearest Readers,
Last week I talked about finding a handwritten list of evocative words I’d pulled from the introduction to The Essential Rumi, translations by Coleman Barks with John Moyne. This week I’m gravitating to the phrase “within something” from that same stack of words.

On my recent morning walks, nature left traces of an inner life on leaves, bark and branches.
Here are three of our communications, and one ordinary observation of my "disembodied" hand:
Still You Keep Pushing
STILL YOU KEEP PUSHING
You are plagued and tormented
By the swelling at your core.
Still you keep pushing over
and around the restraint
For a taste of the sun.
-Tuesday 4/30/2013
Something Inside
SOMETHING INSIDE
Something inside cannot be denied–
A love or a longing?
A dream never tried?
Perhaps it’s a sickness
Or tumors that show,
Or maybe it's joy
Bubbling up from below.
-Thursday 5/2/2013
The Face in the Tree

THE FACE IN THE TREE
On my street
A tree is trying to be human.
Her spirit presses from the inside out,
Stretching its walls like a gnarly balloon.
Tomorrow perhaps I’ll say hello
And welcome her to the neighborhood.
-Sunday 5.5.2013
Five Fingers
  FIVE FINGERS
Five fingers slung around a glass of beer.
Five rosy glowsticks in a daze of gold.
You seem like someone else’s hand
Caught in the act of being useful.

Dear Hand,
Tonight I see the underside of you.
Palm and appendages highlighted.
Magnified by glass, liquid,
And a soft coil of lightbulb near the bed.
 -Friday 5.3.2013


Saturday, April 27, 2013

WAKING UP–Renewing connection with the soul

 I was sleeping, and being comforted
By a cool breeze, when suddenly a gray dove
From a thicket sang and sobbed with longing,
And reminded me of my own passion.

I had been away from my own soul so long,
So late-sleeping, but that dove’s crying
Woke me and made me cry. Praise
To all early-waking grievers!
  -Adi al-Riga quoted by Rumi in The Essential Rumi

Dearest Readers,




Yesterday I rescued a beloved collection of Rumi poetry from a dusty corner of my bookcase. On the blank page before the introduction to The Essential Rumi, translations by Coleman Barks with John Moyne,  I found a list of seventeen words and phrases in my handwriting that I had isolated from the intro to describe the generous form of the mind of the mystical poet–not monuments, but fluid explorations of the individual longing for union with the divine. Each is a textual jewel to contemplate. Waking Up is where I find myself today. 
 
Waking up
Imaginal
Sound of the mourning dove
A salt breeze
Mystery
Discourse
Resonance
Luminous
Within something
Wisdom
Movement
Poetry and Music
Palimpsest
Opening
Self-revealing
Faint and playful
Unfolding

In a month or so I will begin my northern sojourn in Vermont, my heartland. Anticipation of my summer stay starts my creative juices bubbling even now. The mountain air, the silence, childhood memories, the long link to ancestors who emigrated in the mid-1800's to escape the starvation of the Irish potato famine kindles a deep creative spirit.  My condo in Georgia is ready for my summer tenants, and my mind is released.

I began a painting of wings a few weeks ago awash in the under color of a golden dawn-a fitting base for waking up.
 
Golden Wings-Phase 1
I drew two swirls of abstract wings that seemed to stare back at me,

Golden Wings-Phase 2
Applied some preliminary color, and dragged fat black lines of soot from the remnant of a burned log.
Golden Wings-Phase 3
Wings are my metaphor for human transformation into the spiritual realm. The very act of painting is a process of metamorphosis. I may start with an idea, but if I remain open, the application of marks alters my conversation with the original intent.  Friends see plant life and a pair of dancers...more to come on this one.

I’ll end with a Spring Ikebana arrangement that embodies renewal, and after a long absence, another quilted portrait hankie, entitled Day 6-Itchy pulled from my box of feelings.
Azalea, Magnolia and a spiky succulent from the DeKalb Farmer's Market.
Day 6-Itchy-Photo print, quilting thread on vintage cotton handkerchief, and batting
 
Little hatbox of feelings

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

LOST AND FOUND New creations and discarded objects

 
Day Wings -Final_gesso_acrylic_charcoal and pastel on canvas_44 in x 40.5 in
Dearest Readers,

I’ve completed a new painting of wings that I’m tentatively calling “Day Wings”. This one follows in my recent direction of an understated palette and more abstraction in my approach. The subject as always, is the possibility of rising or transformation. The spiraling feathers circle around a hole perhaps in the sky. Like the hole I dug last summer in the ground, and the ladder that rose out of it, I keep excavating the spirituality of transcendence. Below are three preliminary phases in its creation.
Counter clockwise charcoal spiral around an off-center black hole

Addition of a red pastel clockwise "wing"

Clarification of lines, addition of gray acrylic "sky" and vertical background lines

Two new ikebana arrangements are reductionist meditations on the essence and interrelationship of these momentary plant tableaux. Looking at them, working with them, leaving, then coming back to work some more on them gives me peace.
Unremembered succulent spikes from Farmers Market, evergreen and pom-pom mums

Found branches, and pom-pom mums


Finally, I noticed three discarded objects on my walks around the neighborhood–a hairnet, a plastic floss holder, and a missing brick in a wall. All expressed some bit of human resilience, strength in adversity, and in one case a deep longing for the comfort of home.

MINT GREEN FLOSS HOLDER
Mint green floss holder
Adrift on a concrete sea
Holds tight the string
That is his reason to be.
Sunday 3/24/2013

GAP-TOOTHED
A row of brick spits out
A broken cuspid on the lawn–
Smiles a gap-toothed terra-cotta grin.
Thursday 3/21/2013

THE HAIRNET
Foodservice hairnet on the post office lawn
Bends in a fetal curl
Longing for the warm, dark pocket of home.
Friday 3/22/2013

I conclude with a perky group of tiny pansy faces tucked cheerily in a rock garden, ready to burst into song.

PANSY CHORUS
A chorus of pansies
Fresh faced and expectant
Lean into the morning–
Awaiting the maestro’s wand.
Friday 3/22/2013






Wednesday, March 20, 2013

WINTER INTO SPRING–Taking note of small changes

Sunday March 17, 2013
Yellow leaf on the sidewalk. Scalloped by caterpillars. Worm-holed by grubs. Dotted with russet spots of sugar perhaps, or something delicious for Spring’s legions of life.

Dearest Readers,
I invite you to experience the quiet signs of Spring that crossed my walk route this winter. I neglected to photograph most of these brief encounters...so imagine them if you can.

Sunday 2/10/2013 
THREAD OF A VINE
A thread of a vine
Circumscribes the mud.
Green leaves
The size of squirrel ears
Listen to the first blue flower
Exploding along the line.

Ash Wednesday 2/13/ 2013
PINK HOPE
A cherry tree blooms.
Apron of petals on the bare ground.
Pink hope in a cold rain.

Friday 2/15/2013
SMALL YELLOW IDEAS
A forsythia bush is undecided.
Greenish-brown stems try out small yellow ideas.
 
Saturday 2/16/2013
HATCHLINGS
At the edge of the sidewalk
A nest of purple crocus open their mouths
Like hatchlings to receive the sun.

Sunday 2/17/2013
TWENTY FIVE DEGREES
8:00am.
Bands of robins arriving,
Trilling in the trees.
25 degrees.
Are you sorry you all left South Georgia?


Flower sparks

Thursday 2/21/2013
FLOWER SPARKS
Bristly red shoots
Flame out of the mud.
Flower sparks poised to ignite. 
 
Friday 2/22/2013
BLACKBIRD HOARDS
Blackbird hoards overtake an oak
And the rights to the neighborhood air
With liquid songs, improv trills,
And freshets of fluid tweets.
 
Tuesday 2/26/2013
PERISCOPE
Bleak garden sends up a lavender spike.
A periscope in search of Spring
On a rain washed winter day.
 
Thursday 2/28/2013
OVERGROUND RAILROAD
Neighborhood elm is a way station of birdsong
For the overground railroad.
Springbound. 
Headed North.
 
Saturday 3/2/2013
A SCAP OF LINT
Ice gray clouds and
Bitter wind.
A snowflake
Floats out of the sky
Like a lonely scrap of lint.

Golden Trumpets

Tuesday 3/12/2013
GOLDEN TRUMPETS
Yellow blooms on a round green bush–
Golden trumpets blaring
The scent of baby powder
With hints of lemonade.

Supplicant Dogwood
 
Thursday 3/14/2013
THE SUPPLICANT
Mid-March. 28º.
A dogwood stands like a supplicant.
Arms outstretched
Offering nascent buds to a leaden sky.

Glorious Bradford Pear
 
Tuesday 3/19/2013
GLORY
Bradford Pear in all her glory
Exposes herself to Spring.
Swollen blooms
Wave alluring threads 
Of dusty, musky love
To gangs of loud, excited bees.










Sunday, March 3, 2013

GATHER YE ROSEBUDS WHILE YE MAY

Gerber Daisies, Caspia and Foxglove
One Day Later
Dearest Readers,
I laugh when I see the utter collapse of the gerber daisies in the picture above. Being pretty, tall, succulent, and pink for one full day was just too much for them. They remind me of people who try too hard to please... or how I feel sometimes when putting on a happy face against all odds becomes impossible.

Here are two Ikebana arrangements of thistle-like flowers with a hint of blue-gray combined with my tried and true evergreen sprigs and a low spray of nearly dried nandina. They've been green and perky for weeks on my windowsill. Let's hear it for the tough girls!
Thistle, and Evergreen
Thistle, Nandina, Evergreen

Gather Ye Rosebuds While Ye May
(To the Virgins, to Make Much of Time)

 
Gather ye rosebuds while ye may,
Old Time is still a-flying:
And this same flower that smiles today
To-morrow will be dying.

The glorious lamp of Heaven, the sun,
The higher he's a-getting,
The sooner will his race be run.
And nearer he's to setting.

That age is best which is the first,
When youth and blood are warmer;
But being spent, the worse, and worst
Times still succeed the former.

Then be not coy, but use your time,
And while ye may, go marry:
For having lost but once your prime,
You may for ever tarry.

-Robert Herrick
(1591-1674)

Sunday, February 17, 2013

WHACK! WHACK!

Cutting away the dross to get to the heart of the art
Night Wings-final, 42" x 36", acrylic on canvas, 2.16.2013
Night Wings-preliminary final, 42" x 36", acrylic on canvas, 2.3.2013
Dearest Readers,
My method for art making has been a sculptural whacking away at layers of text, or flowers, or paint. In the case of the painting above entitled “Night Wings”, the final as you see it on top, once looked like the painting below it. If you remember, I covered the poor thing in a layer of bright pink, then turquoise, then black again, then white (see the third image below) and then returned to the black wing-force shape and the green-blue night sky. Even though I added layers, I was actually circling back again and again to a bolder, richer place than the original “final”. It was a circuitous way to return to a place of minimal color, but hopefully greater depth and fullness.
Night Wings-middle step, 42" x 36", acrylic on canvas, 2.7.2013
 This week’s Ikebana began with two arrangements I did for the Shambhala Meditation Center in Decatur. Unfortunately, I did not analyse the shrine room first, and created two pieces that seem too tall and "leggy" for the already busy altar. Too much is going on here decoratively, and I did not follow my rule to “Whack Away”. I did have fun creating them, so perhaps I am being too self-critical.
Ikebana arrangements for Diamond Shrine Room_Shambhala Meditation Center of Atlanta
Yesterday I made two Ikebana arrangements for my home, which soothed my brain and satisfied my need to clip away at superfluous elements. I also broke down and purchased some flowers. What a treat!
Ikebana-Iris, evergreen and unknown lavender flower 2.26.2013
Ikebana-found azalea, evergreen and unknown lavender flower 2.16.201
You can follow me on Twitter @ceceliakane if you like haiku-ish poetry. I try to do one a day. I love Twitter’s way of forcing me to cut the crap, and get to the bone of the poem...perfect for my liberty-taking, thin-as-a-wisp haiku. Here’s one from this week:

A forsythia bush is undecided.
Greenish-brown stems try out small yellow ideas.
-2-15-2013 
 
I’ll end this Whack-Whack wackiness with the complete current draft of “The Interstice”, the story I've serialized in past blogs of the old woman who tries out death, but realizes she is not ready.
I’ve hacked away about 45% of the verbiage and put it into prose format. It’s still a bumpy ride, but mostly good. I’ll return to her when some time and distance gives me fresh eyes and ears.Thanks for going through the process with me. Any input?
 
The Interstice
    The old woman slipped out her back door and stood silently on the concrete stoop. Overhead, a circuit board of constellations and passing planes flickered in the depths of the moonlit sky. She leaned over the metal pipe railing and grabbed the end of a sparkling black string that dangled from a star. She reached for another, tied them together in a square knot, and gingerly sat down on the swing she had created. She gripped the strings firmly, bent her knees, and took some cautious leaps like a baby in a Jolly Jumper. The contraption began to rise through a swaying sea of star strings that tickled her face and stroked her body.

The old woman was both frightened and elated as the city spread out below her dangling legs. Illuminated pools circled streetlamps and defined the paths of silent cars. She rose higher.
It was cold, but manageable if she breathed deeply, and relaxed her eyes and mouth. This maneuver stopped the shivering, and allowed her the courage to glance from side to side and below her feet. Her city was gone, swallowed by infinite depths of navy blue. All around her, space was awash in bobbing, babbling string riders gliding in a weightless cosmic sound garden, spitting alphabets of moods that clogged the heavens with three-dimensional feelings. HAPPY, BORED, CALM, MOROSE, RELAXED, NERVOUS, WISTFUL, SAD, PLEASANT. The emotions had spin, attraction and an internal drive that shot the letters like broken teeth out into the universe, clumping together in nimbus globs of granular grunts or resounding glee. She was bumped and jostled by the bobbers and their mood projectiles, yet the people on the strings did not themselves embody these sentiments. No frowns or smiles or nods of recognition greeted the old woman. She was trapped in dead air, constantly colliding with the deadpan dead in a cosmic landscape of straight-faced feelings and zero joy. It was time to find another way.

The old woman pumped her legs and flapped her elbows like a heavenly hen frantically treading the atmosphere. She pedaled and pumped in stationary circles and arcs, losing energy with each failed attempt at escape. Cold and crying, she gave up hope, and released her grip on the strings. She fell backwards, eyes closed, with her arms stretched wide, surrendering to the night. Her body drifted from her swing and away from the dispassionate string riders.

Inhaling deeply, exhaling rhythmically, the old woman floated for a while, then caught a sudden downdraft. She twirled within a funnel-shaped breeze, descending centripetally into warmth and bluer sky. She rolled and relaxed with the swirling wind, arms still open, but righting herself, feet together now like a mortal divining rod anticipating earth.

The city twinkled below, emerging into dawn. Moving lights inched along with linear purpose. Her heart leapt. Street lamps and rooftops grew larger until at last the old woman landed gently, feet first on her concrete stoop. The moon still shone. A few stars blinked. The world twittered with the insistent note of an early bird. The woman sighed, opened her back door and stepped joyfully into the light, and solidity of her lovely kitchen. 
 




Thursday, February 7, 2013

NIGHT MOVES

Night Wings in progress, version 5 - Acrylic on canvas
Dearest Readers,
My unconscious theme lately is nighttime and winter. This painting, the Ikebana below, and the last installment of my story of the old woman who grabs a string hanging from a star, all have night as a cause, effect or backdrop. The painting of dark wings above is set inside an evening sky. I like the juxtaposition of low contrast colors and some sort of primeval force. I’ve included the stages I took to get there with some preliminary studies on paper that I did last summer in Vermont.
Wings-first study-Acrylic, pastel and ink on kraft paper
Wings-second study-Acrylic, pastel and ink on kraft paper  
Wings-third study-Acrylic, pastel and ink on kraft paper
Night Wings-in progress version 4-Acrylic on canvas
 Fortunately, or unfortunately I did not stop with the dark painting at the top, but dove in and repainted it in order to add more layers of undercolor. The last version at the bottom is unfinished. I hope I haven’t gone too far in slathering on these Barbie colors, but the piece is still unfolding back into the night. Here's what I did...
Night Wings-in progress version 6-Acrylic on canvas
Night Wings-in progress version 7-Acrylic on canvas
Night Wings-in progress version 8-Acrylic on canvas 
The Ikebana arrangement below is a product of what I can scrounge from my cityscape these days---a handful of evergreen sprigs, two thin, thorny branches from a barren bush, and a still-living fatsia leaf from an arrangement I made last Fall. I’m ready for color and Spring!
Winter Ikebana - Unknown thorny branches, Fatsia leaf and Evergreen
I realized today that the draft of the Interstice story that ends today is the tale of an old woman who tries out death, but the universe is not ready. I thought I’d make a modernist ending and leave her stranded, but in the end I opted for joy. Here it is without any editing....

The Interstice- Part 4 Feb. 7. 2013

The old woman pumped her legs and flapped her elbows
Like a cosmic duck frantically treading the sky.
She was able to affect some distance from
The rising tribes of cloudy emotions
But it was a momentary success.
Tied by her string swing to the stars
She pedaled and pumped in circles.
She was desperate and afraid,
Losing precious energy with each attempt at escape.

Cold and crying, she gave up hope,
Released her grip from the strings,
And surrendered to the night.
She fell backwards, eyes closed, with her arms stretched wide.
Her legs slipped from the string harness.

She was free,
Breathing deeply and rhythmically,
Floating for a while,
Then caught in a current of air
That drew her down
Inside gravity’s familiar pull.

She twirled calmly within a funnel-shaped breeze,
Descending gradually, centripetally into warmth and bluer sky.
She rolled and relaxed with the swirling wind
Arms still open, but righting herself,
Feet together now anticipating earth.
A city twinkled below emerging into dawn.
Moving lights inched along with linear purpose.
Her heart leapt.
Street lamps and rooftops grew larger
Until at last the old woman landed gently, feet first
On her concrete stoop.

The moon still shone. A few stars blinked.
The world twittered with the insistent note of
An early bird.
The woman sighed, opened her back door and stepped
Joyfully into the light, warmth and solidity
Of her little kitchen.